Where Will I Go From Here

 

When the pen could no longer

Scribble how I am feeling…

When I could no longer find 

how to paint my mind…

When my voice 

I could no longer hear…

Where will I go from here…

©️Himawari no Yakusoku🌻

Feel their pain...

The depth of the deepest pain

Oh who could contain...?

The sadness of the saddest heart

Oh who could grasp...?

Feel their pain 

Feel their sadness

So you may understand...

              Inhopelessness 

              @MA12192015

Like a Cancer

Like a cancer

My pain is like a cancer

No cure...

They never heal...

Could only wish for a miracle 

If only God would come to heal...

They said let go and let God...

They said never lose hope have faith...

They said get up and move on...

They said be happy and welcome a new life...

They said be strong hold on...

They said love yourself and be free...

They said so many beautiful words

but they never know what  a dying heart

and soul is going through...

They never know how they helped 

themselves up to breathe a tick at a time...

Like a cancer

Their pain never heals...

Though deep in their soul

they could only wish

God will send His miracle to heal...

          Inhopelessness 

          @MA12122015

PTSD

PTSD

Do you know them?

Do you really understand 

what they're going through?

Do you feel their pain?

Do you hear what they hear?

Do you see what they see?

Can you feel their agony?

You will never know

If you are not one...

    Inhopelessness 

     @MA1272015

Where art thou now oh God...

Where art thou now oh God?...

Why hast thou forsaken me?

Why hast thou not saved me

from my pains and misery?

Why hast thine arms too short 

to reach out to my heart?

Why hast  thine ears

deaf to my tears?

Why hast thine eyes

seen not my frailties?

Where art thou now my God?...

Thou hast known 

my soul believes in thee...

Through all my agony

in thine will in faith I remained...

in thine wonderful amazing grace

always I believed...

For Thou art God

Marvelous and Mighty 

Holy in Majesty...

Yet...

Where art thou now Oh God?...

All around me are pain and tears

my worn torn heart 

are all that I could see...

Where art  thou now oh God?...

        Inhopelessness 

         @MA1262015

Rest my heart...

When sadness is creeping 

the wounds throbbing 

all I can do is whisper 

"My heart just trust 

the will of God..."

Through all the tears

I keep telling myself 

"Rest my heart 

in trusting 

the heart of God..."

In the land of the living...

      

Oh God...

Please feel my grief 

      and heal my pain

You know my heart 

      is dying within

The sadness is consuming

      it is overwhelming

You know I'm tired

      you know the weight

that I've been bearing...

      I pray...

Please touch my heart

      please bless my soul 

with your peace and grace 

      in the land 

      of the living

Please allow me to live 

      a life that is 

      truly breathing

In hopelessness 

      please grant me hope

I pray Oh Lord...

      

Please send your grace...

Father God

where is your grace?

for until now 

I am drowning in misery

and tears...

Lord...

where now is your grace?

To heal my so worn heart

from all the wounds and hurts...

Lord...

you know 

I am constantly waiting...

Please send now 

your healing grace...

As another day comes...

In tears 

and in deep pain

you know oh Lord

I am trusting in your will

Though the sadness is never leaving

Though the pain is never ever ending

Upon waking up in every morning 

My Lord I will call to you again

to sustain me with your grace 

as another day comes 

and roll again 

and again

Malady of Pain...

You never know

the weight of my sadness...

you never know 

the depth of my pain...

You never care how it feels

You never care it never heals 

Had you know and had you care 

you never could have caused

this malady 

of agony and pain...

Call on God

Call on God

In your deepest sorrow...

In all your misery...

When everything around you

are just sadness and pain...

and your heart could no longer bear...

Call on God!

Just call on God

in Jesus name...

wherever you're left out...

Loneliness will eat you out...

Sadness will drain your strength...

The thoughts of every detail of your pain

exhausts your sanity...

and no reason would ever fit ...

In all the void ... 

when there's nothing to hold

and believe ...

Look on God ...  

trust in what He is doing...

for He is moving...

and working things out for good

out from wherever you're left out..

In Hopelessness

In Hopelessness

When things around are dim 

and you are losing yourself...

When hope is not available 

though you grope for hope...

When pain and sadness 

are overwhelming 

and your eyes and heart 

are sore in crying...

for everything have turned 

to nothing...

When days and nights are passing

and you are stuck in your own shell...

for todays and morrows 

have lost their meaning

and you wish to not wake up again

to another morning...

Turn your eyes upon Jesus...

Focus your eyes on God...

He made life and the universe 

what then can He not do...?

He knows all that you've been through 

All the days He is with you...

He sees you through 

with His mercy and grace 

sustaining you...

Believe and trust 

God is leading your way

His will and purposes 

are always the best and good

from your hopelessness 

guiding you all the way...