From the Flow...

When things around 

are dragging you down

weary not...

your soul knows

where your strength

will come from...

It comes 

from the Heart of God

streaming through His grace 

flowing through faith 

for those who believe...

So weary not...

All I need to be

In my life 

you led me through many

difficulties and testings ...

You know how 

my days have been

as you know my soul within

from you nothing is hidden...

I've been into many

and you were with me 

all the way...

Though no one 

stood by me

But I have you 

always with me...

and you know 

that you are all I have...

that in your grace is all 

I need to be...

Please see me through

My hopelessness I give to you

My swollen heart I lift to you

You know how I am 

suffering 

great agony and deep pain

In hopelessness 

to you I kneel 

sustain my heart

please see me through

Rest my heart...

When sadness is creeping 

the wounds throbbing 

all I can do is whisper 

"My heart just trust 

the will of God..."

Through all the tears

I keep telling myself 

"Rest my heart 

in trusting 

the heart of God..."

Trust in God my heart

Trust in God 

my heart

just trust 

in Him

just trust 

in His will...

In everything...

In everything 

God allowed to happen

He wants us to learn...

that in Him 

we can always lean...

that nothing will stand 

apart from Him...

Pen your Pain

Harm yourself no more...

You've been hurt 

much too much

Stop... 

Not anymore...

your skin please don't cut

In your melancholy

in your struggles and despair

write down your pain

pen your heart and hurts

the screaming and gnashing within

all the agony and tears

write them all down my friend...

To Be Still...

As the thoughts 

rush one by one

I will quiet my soul

and be still before you 

my Lord...

For the things that are not meant to be 

For the life you did not will for me

though it tore my heart

so great and so deep

in streaming tears 

I shed...

There's nothing I can do

but to be still 

before you...

Just hold on...

        Just hold on...

In moving on...

In letting go...

In trying to be strong...

In surviving the pain...

In comforting your heart...

In wiping out your tears...

Just hold on...

trusting God

that in His time 

He will make all things 

beautiful...

In the land of the living...

      

Oh God...

Please feel my grief 

      and heal my pain

You know my heart 

      is dying within

The sadness is consuming

      it is overwhelming

You know I'm tired

      you know the weight

that I've been bearing...

      I pray...

Please touch my heart

      please bless my soul 

with your peace and grace 

      in the land 

      of the living

Please allow me to live 

      a life that is 

      truly breathing

In hopelessness 

      please grant me hope

I pray Oh Lord...

      

Please send your grace...

Father God

where is your grace?

for until now 

I am drowning in misery

and tears...

Lord...

where now is your grace?

To heal my so worn heart

from all the wounds and hurts...

Lord...

you know 

I am constantly waiting...

Please send now 

your healing grace...

As another day comes...

In tears 

and in deep pain

you know oh Lord

I am trusting in your will

Though the sadness is never leaving

Though the pain is never ever ending

Upon waking up in every morning 

My Lord I will call to you again

to sustain me with your grace 

as another day comes 

and roll again 

and again

Cruel Me...

Today

again...

I stabbed my heart

Oh Lord you know the depth

you know the pain 

you know the agony

I could not pretend

With all that my eyes can see

Lord forgive me...

I stabbed my heart

again...

today

Sole reason...

When your heart 

is where your hope is

when in hope 

is where your heart is

Yet you are 

in a place of hopelessness 

where you lay in bed of tears 

and could not find reasons 

to believe 

Faith in God's purposes 

is the sole reason

to breathe...

Facing Hopelessness

Facing hopelessness 

is facing reality...

It may mean giving up

on the things that matters much

It may mean to accept things 

that are not meant to be...

as with things that are meant to be...

It doesn't mean giving in to defeat

But being brave to stand and believe 

that there are reasons and purposes

for everything...

Though things aren't going your way 

though to hope 

is what your heart wishes to be 

though to have hope 

is what you want to pray...

Facing hopelessness 

is facing truth and reality...