Teaching Me...

When my realities 

are hurting me again

My Lord, My God

faithfully touches

my grieving heart

easing the heaviness

teaching me 

how to breathe...

    Inhopelessness

     @MA1242016

Like a Cancer

Like a cancer

My pain is like a cancer

No cure...

They never heal...

Could only wish for a miracle 

If only God would come to heal...

They said let go and let God...

They said never lose hope have faith...

They said get up and move on...

They said be happy and welcome a new life...

They said be strong hold on...

They said love yourself and be free...

They said so many beautiful words

but they never know what  a dying heart

and soul is going through...

They never know how they helped 

themselves up to breathe a tick at a time...

Like a cancer

Their pain never heals...

Though deep in their soul

they could only wish

God will send His miracle to heal...

          Inhopelessness 

          @MA12122015

Where art thou now oh God...

Where art thou now oh God?...

Why hast thou forsaken me?

Why hast thou not saved me

from my pains and misery?

Why hast thine arms too short 

to reach out to my heart?

Why hast  thine ears

deaf to my tears?

Why hast thine eyes

seen not my frailties?

Where art thou now my God?...

Thou hast known 

my soul believes in thee...

Through all my agony

in thine will in faith I remained...

in thine wonderful amazing grace

always I believed...

For Thou art God

Marvelous and Mighty 

Holy in Majesty...

Yet...

Where art thou now Oh God?...

All around me are pain and tears

my worn torn heart 

are all that I could see...

Where art  thou now oh God?...

        Inhopelessness 

         @MA1262015

Cruel Me...

Today

again...

I stabbed my heart

Oh Lord you know the depth

you know the pain 

you know the agony

I could not pretend

With all that my eyes can see

Lord forgive me...

I stabbed my heart

again...

today