You'll Never Know

You will never understand 

the reasons for my tears

because you never know

what I've been...

Say not a word 

because you never know

how God 

has led me through all...

    Inhopelessness 

      @MA 7/2016

My Soul Screams

At this very moment 

my heart would like to scream...

to cry out 

all the anguish and pain...

In deep silence 

my soul 

in gushing tears 

screams...

    Inhopelessness 

     @MA5202016

The Grace of God

I am not strong

I have no strength of my own

I was so frail 

Lamed by my realities...

When I was in my saddest pit 

When I could not even

lift my finger 

It is the grace of God

that helped me up

Teaching my heart

a moment at a time 

on how to breathe...

   Inhopelessness

   @MA 4122016

Believe...

Many 

Are going through the same

All sorts of pain

Agony from loss

Life has lost meaning 

Yet...

We must learn to breathe 

Even for another day

In each day at a time...

Believe...

God's grace will lift you up

And will lead you through...

    Inhopelessness 

     @MA 492016

If Only

If I could only touch the skies 

I would paint the colors of my rainbow

with all the hues of hope...

If I could only pluck 

the moon and the stars 

to light up my darkest nights

with all my might I would...

If I could only tell time 

to stay...

If only God 

will change my reality...

            Inhopelessnes 

@Manuelle Augustine 2282016

I Dared...

I took a glance at hope...

My heart leaped in gratitude

to see some hues of greens...

Oh how comforting moment 

to see a glimpse

though deep within 

I wonder if it is within my reach...

I paused to hold my breath

braced my heart

again I dared to look at hope 

finding out

once again 

my heart ripped off

as before my eyes

hope faded away once more...

            Inhopelessnes 

@Manuelle Augustine 2262016

In Hopelessness

What is hope

for the hopeless?

Where is hope

in hopelessness?

Hope is the most wonderful thing

a hoping heart can ever have...

Hoping in hopelessness 

is the painfullest agony

of a hopeless heart...

         Inhopelessness 

             @2252016

In Your Will

To breathe in your will

To live your will...

To breathe in my truths 

To live in my realities...

Though through all the pain...

Though through all the tears...

           Inhopelessness 

@Manuelle Augustine 2242016

If Only God Willed

If only God willed

Things could have been well 

If only God willed

I need not shed a tear

If only God willed...

Yet I will always believe 

that all that God willed

are always what's best...

         Inhopelessness 

           @MA252016

Teaching Me...

When my realities 

are hurting me again

My Lord, My God

faithfully touches

my grieving heart

easing the heaviness

teaching me 

how to breathe...

    Inhopelessness

     @MA1242016

I Asked God

Again today

I gazed at the skies...

My heart in throbbing pain 

in streaming tears 

sought the face of God...

Again painfully 

I asked Him...

"Oh God 

What do you see

deep in me?..."

"Oh God

Are these all

what you purposed for me?..."

In fiercely grieving heart

I asked God again today...

      Inhopelessness 

       @MA1232016

In Losing All Reasons

I am dead so weary

betrayed 

rejected

pushed away...

I am dead desolate

just a mistake

just a renounced sin

don't mean anything...

I am dead so weak

so drained

feeling worthless

so meaningless...

I am dead to the grave

my soul deep in me

groaning

in misery and pain...

Losing all reasons to move

graciously lovingly

God is keeping my worn soul

in His embrace...

helping my heart inhale

for another day 

in my everyday...

       Inhopelessness 

       @MA01152016

When I am giving up on me...

I was dying

I am dying within

I lost all meaning 

No use for existing...

To close my eyes

and rest my worn soul 

is all that calls...

I was dying

I am dying

My sorrows consuming 

So tired of wretchedness 

I rather lay in solitude 

in timeless slumber

where all my pain

will be forgotten...

I was dying 

I am dying

everyday I am...

Yet...amazingly

God is lifting me up

in my each falling...

when I am giving up on me

in each day...

    Inhopelessness 

    @MA01082016