Teaching Me...

When my realities 

are hurting me again

My Lord, My God

faithfully touches

my grieving heart

easing the heaviness

teaching me 

how to breathe...

    Inhopelessness

     @MA1242016

I Asked God

Again today

I gazed at the skies...

My heart in throbbing pain 

in streaming tears 

sought the face of God...

Again painfully 

I asked Him...

"Oh God 

What do you see

deep in me?..."

"Oh God

Are these all

what you purposed for me?..."

In fiercely grieving heart

I asked God again today...

      Inhopelessness 

       @MA1232016

In Losing All Reasons

I am dead so weary

betrayed 

rejected

pushed away...

I am dead desolate

just a mistake

just a renounced sin

don't mean anything...

I am dead so weak

so drained

feeling worthless

so meaningless...

I am dead to the grave

my soul deep in me

groaning

in misery and pain...

Losing all reasons to move

graciously lovingly

God is keeping my worn soul

in His embrace...

helping my heart inhale

for another day 

in my everyday...

       Inhopelessness 

       @MA01152016

When I am giving up on me...

I was dying

I am dying within

I lost all meaning 

No use for existing...

To close my eyes

and rest my worn soul 

is all that calls...

I was dying

I am dying

My sorrows consuming 

So tired of wretchedness 

I rather lay in solitude 

in timeless slumber

where all my pain

will be forgotten...

I was dying 

I am dying

everyday I am...

Yet...amazingly

God is lifting me up

in my each falling...

when I am giving up on me

in each day...

    Inhopelessness 

    @MA01082016