If Only

If I could only touch the skies 

I would paint the colors of my rainbow

with all the hues of hope...

If I could only pluck 

the moon and the stars 

to light up my darkest nights

with all my might I would...

If I could only tell time 

to stay...

If only God 

will change my reality...

            Inhopelessnes 

@Manuelle Augustine 2282016

In Hopelessness

What is hope

for the hopeless?

Where is hope

in hopelessness?

Hope is the most wonderful thing

a hoping heart can ever have...

Hoping in hopelessness 

is the painfullest agony

of a hopeless heart...

         Inhopelessness 

             @2252016

PTSD

PTSD

Do you know them?

Do you really understand 

what they're going through?

Do you feel their pain?

Do you hear what they hear?

Do you see what they see?

Can you feel their agony?

You will never know

If you are not one...

    Inhopelessness 

     @MA1272015

Though God

In our every today's 

the one we love

may not be with us...

They may not be there

in our every tomorrows...

But deep here in our hearts

they are always with us...

Though God did not will

that we belong in their life

that they belong in our life...

Have faith in His will 

for the reasons why...

The hopes and dreams

The life that we wished we have

The time gone by

that we can not bring back...

The thoughts and the memories 

in our hearts and mind 

may keep coming back...

Even then in these 

though in streaming tears

hold on and be comforted 

in trusting the heart of God...

          Inhopelessness 

         @MA11/272015

In hopelessness...

I have been of no hope

Yet believing in hope...

In my hopelessness

I rest my grieving soul 

in completely trusting 

the will and purposes of God...

Faithfully His grace

is seeing me through...

     Inhopelessness 

      @MA9172015

Take heed...

Take heed...

God 

stretches out His arms

sending 

His mercy and grace

giving Hope 

to the Hopeless...

    Inhopelessness

        @MA2015

Hopelessness

Hopelessness 

is like cancer

most of the time 

it's final...…

My Finality

🍂Faced with the  truths again 

I am trembling...

realizing again 

to hope is not for me...

like a cancer

the pangs of my reality

is taking me to my finality

hopelessness

is my destiny...

God knows why...

God knows everything...

It's not about giving up

there's nothing I can do

it's just what is given...

Miracles and gifts 

some people are blessed 

cruel it may seem 

sad that 

it's not what God

has purposed for me...🍂

Inhopelessness

MA©️2015

Believing in Hope

Yet in the world 

of hopelessness...

Though to hope 

is not for me...

My soul believes 

in Hope...

Cruel Me...

Today

again...

I stabbed my heart

Oh Lord you know the depth

you know the pain 

you know the agony

I could not pretend

With all that my eyes can see

Lord forgive me...

I stabbed my heart

again...

today

Sole reason...

When your heart 

is where your hope is

when in hope 

is where your heart is

Yet you are 

in a place of hopelessness 

where you lay in bed of tears 

and could not find reasons 

to believe 

Faith in God's purposes 

is the sole reason

to breathe...

Facing Hopelessness

Facing hopelessness 

is facing reality...

It may mean giving up

on the things that matters much

It may mean to accept things 

that are not meant to be...

as with things that are meant to be...

It doesn't mean giving in to defeat

But being brave to stand and believe 

that there are reasons and purposes

for everything...

Though things aren't going your way 

though to hope 

is what your heart wishes to be 

though to have hope 

is what you want to pray...

Facing hopelessness 

is facing truth and reality...

Hopelessness

How wonderful is the word Hope...

It brightens a way...

It opens a pathway to strive...

It gives life a meaning...

It invigorates a soul...

But there are things 

that Hope can never change...

They are called reality and truth

Which only acceptance and faith

for the will and purposes of God

is the only choice...

It is called hopelessness 

a bitter truth...

A hearts plea...

As you removed him 

  from my life...

           Lord...

   Please remove him

       from my heart...

Call... in Jesus Name...

When you are reminded 

of your pain...

Call...

In Jesus name...

like a dying candle...

Like a dying candle

waiting for the last

tiny blow of wind 

then it's gone...

I pray my hopelessness 

sadness and pain

shall be blown away 

with the wind...

Give it to God

Stop analyzing...

Give it to God

and let God...

and in Jesus name 

call...

wherever you're left out...

Loneliness will eat you out...

Sadness will drain your strength...

The thoughts of every detail of your pain

exhausts your sanity...

and no reason would ever fit ...

In all the void ... 

when there's nothing to hold

and believe ...

Look on God ...  

trust in what He is doing...

for He is moving...

and working things out for good

out from wherever you're left out..

In losing the one you love...

When you love someone so much...

with all your life 

with all of yourself 

and lose him... her...

in whatever way

You feel like...

pointing a gun on your chest 

to blow your heart in pieces

to it's deepest recesses...

to nothingness...

Through all these...

God knows...

He will never leave you

where you are...

He will summon the universe 

to move and come to your refuge...

to make your heart know and understand 

that there are reasons why things 

has to happen...

In His marvelous way

His grace will sustain you through 

and heal you ...

You only have to trust in Him...

Look up ...

Through all the frustrations

rejections and betrayal...

Through all the unfairnes of things...

With the many why's...

With all the heaviness...

Look up ...

know and remember 

that behind the clouds

is the never fading blue skies...

Be comforted 

with the universe's declaration 

that God is ever behind 

all the clouds and storms 

in our lives...