Cruel Me...

Today

again...

I stabbed my heart

Oh Lord you know the depth

you know the pain 

you know the agony

I could not pretend

With all that my eyes can see

Lord forgive me...

I stabbed my heart

again...

today

In losing the one you love...

When you love someone so much...

with all your life 

with all of yourself 

and lose him... her...

in whatever way

You feel like...

pointing a gun on your chest 

to blow your heart in pieces

to it's deepest recesses...

to nothingness...

Through all these...

God knows...

He will never leave you

where you are...

He will summon the universe 

to move and come to your refuge...

to make your heart know and understand 

that there are reasons why things 

has to happen...

In His marvelous way

His grace will sustain you through 

and heal you ...

You only have to trust in Him...

In quietness and trust...

In quietness and trust...

In my sorrow and pain 

I cried to God for mercy...

I know my God knows 

how I grieve

My God knows how I feel...

He knows how I struggle 

to survive and believe

and submit 

to His purposes and will...

He knows it's never easy

But He made it happen 

to me...

In quietness and trust 

He gives my heart rest...

in His mercy and grace...

     Manuelle Augustine 

             @2015

       Inhopelessness