Like a Cancer

Like a cancer

My pain is like a cancer

No cure...

They never heal...

Could only wish for a miracle 

If only God would come to heal...

They said let go and let God...

They said never lose hope have faith...

They said get up and move on...

They said be happy and welcome a new life...

They said be strong hold on...

They said love yourself and be free...

They said so many beautiful words

but they never know what  a dying heart

and soul is going through...

They never know how they helped 

themselves up to breathe a tick at a time...

Like a cancer

Their pain never heals...

Though deep in their soul

they could only wish

God will send His miracle to heal...

          Inhopelessness 

          @MA12122015

I Love you Lord

I love you Lord

Though

my eyes are sore in tears

and my heart deeply in great pain...

I love you Lord

Though

my days are spent in griefs 

and my life is a fate

of crumbs and leftovers....

I Love you Lord

Through 

all that in my life 

you allowed and willed 

to happen...

Through the losses and frailties...

Through nothingness...

            Inhopelessness 

           @MA12102015

PTSD

PTSD

Do you know them?

Do you really understand 

what they're going through?

Do you feel their pain?

Do you hear what they hear?

Do you see what they see?

Can you feel their agony?

You will never know

If you are not one...

    Inhopelessness 

     @MA1272015

Where art thou now oh God...

Where art thou now oh God?...

Why hast thou forsaken me?

Why hast thou not saved me

from my pains and misery?

Why hast thine arms too short 

to reach out to my heart?

Why hast  thine ears

deaf to my tears?

Why hast thine eyes

seen not my frailties?

Where art thou now my God?...

Thou hast known 

my soul believes in thee...

Through all my agony

in thine will in faith I remained...

in thine wonderful amazing grace

always I believed...

For Thou art God

Marvelous and Mighty 

Holy in Majesty...

Yet...

Where art thou now Oh God?...

All around me are pain and tears

my worn torn heart 

are all that I could see...

Where art  thou now oh God?...

        Inhopelessness 

         @MA1262015

Though God

In our every today's 

the one we love

may not be with us...

They may not be there

in our every tomorrows...

But deep here in our hearts

they are always with us...

Though God did not will

that we belong in their life

that they belong in our life...

Have faith in His will 

for the reasons why...

The hopes and dreams

The life that we wished we have

The time gone by

that we can not bring back...

The thoughts and the memories 

in our hearts and mind 

may keep coming back...

Even then in these 

though in streaming tears

hold on and be comforted 

in trusting the heart of God...

          Inhopelessness 

         @MA11/272015

He will get you through...

God has reasons...

Though in tears 

Though in pain 

just let it flow

because faithfully 

He will get you through

until we know and understand 

the reasons of the many why's...

          Inhopelessness

          @MA11202015

I Kneel...

Oh what amazing comfort it is 

to trust and believe the heart of God...

Oh what solitude to understand 

God can never be wrong...

In all my deepest pain

facing life's truths and realities

though in streaming tears

my heart is resting 

in trusting God's grace...

Oh God I will draw myself to you

I will cling in you...

When my sadness and pain 

is drowning me within...

when it's mist is pulling me in strain

and my heart starts to crumble again 

faced by the dagger of reality 

to you I come and kneel...

              Inhopelessness 

               @MA1182015