Pen your Pain

Harm yourself no more...

You've been hurt 

much too much

Stop... 

Not anymore...

your skin please don't cut

In your melancholy

in your struggles and despair

write down your pain

pen your heart and hurts

the screaming and gnashing within

all the agony and tears

write them all down my friend...

To Be Still...

As the thoughts 

rush one by one

I will quiet my soul

and be still before you 

my Lord...

For the things that are not meant to be 

For the life you did not will for me

though it tore my heart

so great and so deep

in streaming tears 

I shed...

There's nothing I can do

but to be still 

before you...

Just hold on...

        Just hold on...

In moving on...

In letting go...

In trying to be strong...

In surviving the pain...

In comforting your heart...

In wiping out your tears...

Just hold on...

trusting God

that in His time 

He will make all things 

beautiful...

In the land of the living...

      

Oh God...

Please feel my grief 

      and heal my pain

You know my heart 

      is dying within

The sadness is consuming

      it is overwhelming

You know I'm tired

      you know the weight

that I've been bearing...

      I pray...

Please touch my heart

      please bless my soul 

with your peace and grace 

      in the land 

      of the living

Please allow me to live 

      a life that is 

      truly breathing

In hopelessness 

      please grant me hope

I pray Oh Lord...

      

Please send your grace...

Father God

where is your grace?

for until now 

I am drowning in misery

and tears...

Lord...

where now is your grace?

To heal my so worn heart

from all the wounds and hurts...

Lord...

you know 

I am constantly waiting...

Please send now 

your healing grace...

As another day comes...

In tears 

and in deep pain

you know oh Lord

I am trusting in your will

Though the sadness is never leaving

Though the pain is never ever ending

Upon waking up in every morning 

My Lord I will call to you again

to sustain me with your grace 

as another day comes 

and roll again 

and again

Cruel Me...

Today

again...

I stabbed my heart

Oh Lord you know the depth

you know the pain 

you know the agony

I could not pretend

With all that my eyes can see

Lord forgive me...

I stabbed my heart

again...

today