In your grace...

"Gods grace is not with us ..."

Gods grace is not in me...(?)

Oh God...

How this words cut my heart...

How this truth pierced my soul...

To be not in your grace...

To be out from your grace...

Oh Lord...

You know 

How this truth 

hath melted me...

To be away from your grace 

what a cursed creature I could ever be...

But I know...

This  is not what you want me to be

This is not what you willed for me...

Out from your grace

you will not leave me...

for in your grace 

is where you want me to be

is where you embrace me...

Until healing springs...

writing 

writing down here 

the weepings of my soul

trying to paint in words

the echoes 

and shapes of my world

helping my bewailing vessel 

to face 

life's unprecedented truth

over and over this I do

writing down here 

sadness and pain

until the time

of healing

springs

   Inhopelessness 

       @MA2015

Hopelessness

How wonderful is the word Hope...

It brightens a way...

It opens a pathway to strive...

It gives life a meaning...

It invigorates a soul...

But there are things 

that Hope can never change...

They are called reality and truth

Which only acceptance and faith

for the will and purposes of God

is the only choice...

It is called hopelessness 

a bitter truth...

A hearts plea...

As you removed him 

  from my life...

           Lord...

   Please remove him

       from my heart...

I wonder...

Father God

How do you see me?

What is my image to thee?

How do you look at me?

What am I to thee?

I wonder Oh God

what are your thoughts

about me...

      Manuelle Augustine 

              @2015

In words...

My soul hid in words...

there's nowhere  I could go 

from void and emptiness 

in each passing moment

as I breathe each passing day 

in my painful truth and reality...

        Inhopelessness 

They said...

       They said...

They said..."forget..."

They never know it's not that easy...

They said..."be strong..."

Do they know how it is...

Do they know how heavy...

They said..."hope..."

Have they been in hopelessness...

Have they lived in painful truth...

They said..."have faith..."

Only God knows how I believe...